Perjalanan Masih Jauh

Perjalanan masih jauh…
Meniti liku – liku kehidupan yang penuh ranjau
Mencari yang tidak kelihatan
Menanti yang tidak pasti…
Mengharapkan keajaiban…..
Yang datang bersama pelangi…..

Perjalanan perlu diteruskan,
Yang bermula…perlu berterusan…
Yang berterusan…perlu berakhir….
Soalnya…..Di mana penghujungnya….?
Atau…penghujung itu….satu permulaan baru….?

Persoalan semakin ke pergunungan…..
Memuncak tiada kesudahan…..
Jawapan yang dicari…jauh panggang dari api….
Samalah dengan harapan melihat pelangi di malam hari

Harapan tidak harus putus….
Usaha tidak harus bernoktah….
Kesudahan usia hanya Tuhan yang tahu…
Lumrah alam menjadi tauladan….
Hukum Yang Esa…..menjadi pedoman
Kerana….perjalanan masih jauh….......ABI 06

Hope

There were times, we are so lost,
Feeling like walking in the darkness,
With eyes that cannot see,
Ears that cannot hear,
Hands that cannot sense,

But,
We never stop our journey,
We walk our life with such bravery,
Because of an instinct that can be found in many,
An instinct that guided life of many,
A feeling that secured many

Hope is an instinct,
Hope is just a feeling,
Lose your hope, you shall lose me,
Loosing me, you shall lose your self,
Loosing your self, you shall lose your life
Have hope to have me, to have your life...........ABI 06

Dalam Diam Aku Menulis

Dalam diam ku menulis,
Mengenang nasibku yang seakan pengemis,
Sendirian aku menangis,
Malang berkunjung tiada yang tertepis,
Datangnya bak kilat, sukarku menangkis,

Derita disanubari, tidak terperi,
Duka dan sengsara bukan itu yang ku cari,
Ingin aku, mengulang kembali,
Sejarah silam yang indah walau hanya sehari,

Deraian hujan menyejukkan hati,
Bunyian rintik mengusung memori,
Memori usang jauh dilubuk hati,
Yang tidak mungkin hilang ditelan hari,

Ingin aku membawa diri,
Ke batas sempadan yang tiada penghuni,
Melenyapkan derita yang menyelubungi diri,
Hilang kasih…apalah erti hidup ini…..?..........ABI 06

TAMAN PUJAAN HATI KU

Dalam meneruskan perjalanan ini,
Yang dipenuhi dengan, onak dan duri,
Sampai aku,
Kepersimpangan, lalu
Aku teruskan perjalananku tanpa berfikir panjang,

Sungguh gah kakiku melangkah,
Dengan semangat yang berkobar-kobar,
Untuk memburu cita-cita,
Yang terpendam sekian lama,
Aku terhenti seketika,
Terkaku,
Terpaku,
Kagum,
Hairan,
Terpesona,
Tidak ku sangka,
Akan ku jumpa Taman sedemikian rupa,
Sungguh indah,
Sungguh sempurna,
Mewangi dan harum,
Lalu, aku menjadikannya...Taman idamanku

Taman ini bukan sembarangan,
Taman ini Taman Hikmat,
Taman ini Taman Sakti,
Taman ini Taman Keramat,
Taman ini syurga dunia,

Lalu aku terleka dan terlupa
Akan nawaitu ku
Akan asal ku
Akan cita-cita ku
Dan
Aku terlalu asyik
Melayani perasaanku
Berlari kesana kemari
Sesuka hati
Kurasakan dunia ini milikku
Ku merasakan nikmat yang belum pernah ku rasa
Tetapi,
Yang bermula pasti berakhir
Berakhir kerana kesilapan ku,
Berakhir kerana kegagalan ku,
Berakhir kerana mungkin takdirnya sebegitu,

Setiap sesuatu ada penghujungnya
Tanpa kusedari
Dalam keasyikan
Dalam kesukaan
Dalam keriangan
Yang dilalui
Aku telah sampai ke penghujung taman
Perjalanan masih perlu diteruskan

Ku melangkah keluar daripada taman itu
Dengan hati yang gusar
Gundah gulana
Risau,
Takut,
Sedih
Akan tetapi
Ku gagahi jua, kerana aku sedar
Ianya bukan milikku
Tidak mungkin menjadi milikku

Aku melemparkan pandangan ku ke arah Taman pujaanku
Dapat ku lihat akan bayang-bayang
Kehadiran orang baru
Oh tidak.. tidak...tidak
Menjerit hatiku
Meronta batinku
Memberontak aku

Sendirian
Apa kan daya
Ku tiada berkuasa
Hanya berlinangan air mata
Melihat Taman pujaanku
Bakal menjadi
Milik orang lain

Apa yang hendak ku lakukan
Kepada siapa hendak ku jelaskan
Kepada siapa hendak ku katakan
Kepada siapa hendak ku mengadu

Oh tuhan, tolonglah, tolonglah hamba mu ini
Oh tuhan, aku berdoa padamu
Agar Taman pujaan ku
Akan dijaga, disiram dan dibaja
Dengan sempurna oleh pengganti ku

Taman pujaanku
Akan ku kenang mu
Selama-lamanya
Sehingga akhir hayatku
TAMAN PUJAAN HATI KU..........ABI 06

END OF LIFE

Being different is a bliss,
Bliss…may not be the expression…
Expression need to be shown…
Shown to whom we love the most…

How do we define one?
One that we love so much…
Much…..until one forgets oneself…
Oneself who is so selfless…
Selfless….till we forgot to live our life…
Life that worth living…

Destiny is just a word…
Word that comes with faith…
Faith that make many to belief
Belief in what they can belief
Belief is just a perception
Perception that can be distorted
Distorted to suit our needs…
Needs that always goes along with wants
Wants that has no end
End is what I am waiting for…in MY LIFE.......ABI 06

Dari Mata Turun ke Hati

Dari mata cinta turun ke hati,
Di hati ia bersemi,
Yang bersemi gagah menerjah bumi
Menanam pasak membelah bumi,
Disangka tunjang…rupa akar keladi..
Disangka abadi….rupanya ada badi…
Disangka panas hingga ke hujung hari,
Rupanya gerimis di tengah hari,
Cinta yang bersemi pudar bersama hari,
Semakin hari semakin sepi….
Punah harapan bersama hati yang sepi..
Yang tinggal kini hanyalah pusara abadi. ....ABI 06

Am I worth it?

Am I worth it?

Who will really answer?
Am I really worth it?

Am I worth it so…
For tears to roll from the eyes of an angel….
Whom only have seen tears but nothing else…..

Am I worth it so….
When I am only seeing my angel
In pain and nothing else…..

Am I worth it so……
To ask for an angel …..to be my companion…..
When I am not certain of myself…..

Am I worth it so…..
As only pain visits her heart……
Whenever….I am with her……

To whom shall I ask……am I worth it so…....ABI 06

Feelings or Thoughts

Feelings or Thoughts

Feelings or Thoughts…
Heart or mind…
In the end…who will prevail?
A question….never to be answered…

Some says…
Thought controls the feeling…
Other says….vice versa
Generalist says…listen to your heart…
Wise man says….listen your soul…
To whom…shall I listen?
A question….never to be answered.....Abi 06

The Journey

The journey……

I never wanted to start any…..
For….there will be many….
…And I….. preferred a single journey….

I thought this will be easy…..
To say … “I love you baby”
Then ….”goodbye baby”
And ….wrong I am …as its not easy…..
To say….I’m gone baby

Half way the journey….
I do get advice from many….
Not harm any….
Because it’s worth less than a penny

Here I am….on my journey…..
Towards my destiny….if there is any
And I do not wish to hurt any…..
Can I stop my journey? ABI ……05

Please Do Listen My Dear Heart (Abi Telling Himself)

Please do listen my dear heart,
It was a beautiful journey,
Envied by many,
Perfect match said many,
Made in heaven, I said to any,

Please do listen my dear heart
Courtship is not made in heaven,
Made by man to feel like being in heaven,
Have anyone seen heaven,
Does it really worth to be there even,

Please do listen my dear heart,
Rainbows will not be there forever,
Only to be seen with the help of other,
To be gone when the sunshine is over,
Why can’t you believe, it’s has gone forever,

Please do listen my dear heart,
Don’t cry,
Don’t try, to even cry
Your love have gone, not for you to cry,
It has gone since you fail to try,

Please do listen my dear heart,
Please let go the love in your heart,
Eternality of love is not your part,
Live goes on no matter what,

Please do listen my dear heart,
To carry on is a must,
The end, is just a new start,

Please do listen,my dear heart. ABI……06.

Starting with Name

Hello Everyone,

Let me start with the name.....im known with nick NKY...whereby ....Noor is my name, K is someone's name, she WAS there for a long time, very long time. Then, at that time she meant a lot to me, now it is as good as artic ice, with all the memories thickly frozen and sunken to the depth that i don’t intend to reach. Yong is my best buddy. My best buddy from the age of 7.

With this,

My blog shall start its venture,
Since my way, is not acceptable to the known culture,
Being harassed by so called human in nature,
To whom i would say, you are no better then vulture,
Hindering me, from my better future,
Denying my rights,
Questioning my thoughts,
Regardless what i have been told,
And its myself, that I am going to hold.